So... today I realized yet again how much I just really get frustrated with the American way of learning. I have learned in the last few months that I have a different learning style, that doesn't mean that I'm bad for not learning like the majority of my peers, but it sure does make a lot more sense why I don't do so well with studying, test taking, research writing, etc. (Basically, the American school-system that I've grown up in!)
I have been reminded in the last few months that I never have liked school. I did not even want to come to college. EVER! So today as I talked with my roommate, I realized that I don't know why I have spent thousands of my own money to do something I never wanted to do in the first place. Wow, that is frustrating to think about!
But look at how God has provided all that money to pay for the schooling that is so difficult for me. That in itself is proof that even though I don't WANT to be studying in this way, God wants me here. Wow, chew on that for a bit!
I am currently doing devotions out of a book by Joni Eareckson Tada and today's devotion was about giving God thanks even when the circumstance we find ourselves in would be a typical time to complain or just not understand why we would have to go through the suffering. So I guess I need to stop being so frustrated about the fact of the past, I have always been in this learning environment that is so hard for me to learn in, but God still has taught me! The things I've learned though are beyond the books, the things I've learned deal with people, relationships and most of all, it has forced me to rely on God to get through the struggles of the classroom and homework. I loath those things, it is a huge struggle for me, but wow, He knows what to use to get me to come to Him.
Thank You God for putting me in this place. Continue to teach me, even if it is a different style of learning than those around me, I know You have a plan and a purpose for it all. I trust You God!
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