Take God at His Word, He will NOT fail!

Yesterday was a day of reassurance for me as I sat through the first session of Avant's Candidate Orientation Program. I was assured that all my feelings of hesitancy, fear, and uncertainty were somewhat normal and wise to feel. It is good to have questions and seek the Lord for His direction and confirmation about where and what He wants me to do.

The lingering fear throughout the day yesterday though was that of letting people down despite the decision I make. I was constantly having to remind myself however, that in following God, no one can argue with Him because what He directs is the way I will go.

Today the message was clear, even in subtle ways that maybe only I saw and that was simply the Spirit speaking to my heart, but over and over I heard "He will not fail you! He who has made it known that you will serve Him will NOT let you down!" What a comfort that was and is to me today. I feel like I have always known that to be true, but today specifically I needed to hear that.

Just hearing that was so freeing for me to open up and actually share with people what is going on and allow for real conversations to take place. I don't know the answer yet, all I know with all confidence is that I am to serve my God. In what capacity that is still to be determined, but He will let me know. He has been so faithful in the past, there is no room for me to doubt that He will make His plan clear for me when His time is right. As for now, today, July 13, 2010, I pursue plans with Avant, knowing that at any moment the Lord can and will change that if He desires me to do something else. I have no clue what that means for Luke & I, I have no clue about the time line of things for even the next few months, all I know for certain is my God will not let me down, He will not leave me, He will not fail me, and I am His.

I am Yours Father, take me where You want me.

"Strip away all that remains for Your glory and Your Name
'til there's nothing left of me
Burn the kingdoms I have made that You would shine
And I would fade 'til there's nothing left of me
'til there's nothing left of me"
(Nothing Left of Me by Joel Engle)